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Should I die tonight,
Tilt my head towards the light,
For where I am, darkness looms,
Damned forever in eternal gloom

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just a recap

1. had a good night last night. but dunno why kena pijak kena tenyek during the day until the end of the night. yup, thats right just hold it in.

2. at 2.30 am buey tahan. Fell asleep just b4 the game started. But woke up around 4 to continue watching the game. Was supposed to sleep early that night around 8 pm.

3. Tried looking for a bday gift for my friend. I got him the Shell Ferrari model cars after searching and searching and searching. Why must they be so limited?? Its only a toy.

4. Had a weird dream about her last night. Haha i was with her in a hotel. For some reason we were quite dressed up. She in a white ball dress with curled hair. Me in.....well i dont know. I dont look at myself in my dreams. Then had Baskin Robins. slluurrppp!! damn it la both of us have bday's in months that dont have 31st. *This also prompted me to look at months that have 31st, But those 31st have to fall on tuesdays. (coz Swenssens got earthquake day on tuesdays) This year, takde.
:(((((( aish. If not can go for ice cream marathon. woop

5. Its been far too long since I've done this one thing. And I really crave it more than anything else. Its like its there for no reason now. But then was told that I probably cant do it well. sigh. Well not like it matters. They wont be of any use for a very long time.

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WOOOTT!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST SWEETIE NADIA HO QUIN-LI!!!!
(but poor girl is sick, aiyo)



aaannd



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER-IN-LAW REJINA ABD RAHIM!!!!
(actually she's my only sister-in-law)


Many happy returns for the day!

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I'm SO EXCITED!!!
WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP

did i say I was excited? yes i did.

WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP

cant wait!!!

this is a story of a guy who went mad for an Angel. part 5

alrighty

continuation from the previous chapter

A bus load of Acmarians (......havoc fo sho') made its way to Pangkor. 1st stop : Lumut beach. The wait for the ferry ride across took a long time, but Acmarians made the most of it by.....taking LOTS and LOTS of photos!
This was the time of film cameras. Yes thats correct. At least thats what Jazz had to make do with.

The heat was getting to him. The combination of thirst (puasa month) and raging hormones weren't helping either.
Sand, sun, sea cucumbers were some of the highlights of the trip. Jazz had difficulties using the snorkel he hired for the day due to fatigue from fasting. He finally gave up because he didnt want to drink all that salt water. LOL
With not much money left Jazz couldnt afford the banana boat ride that was promised but nevertheless enjoyed it when he saw his friend Chuck fall off the baot in the middle of the bay area. How evil.

Later in the evening the Acmarians had a little party. This was no ordinary party but one that involved burning. YEAP. burning of books!! OPEN BURNING PEOPLE!!!
Why would a bunch of students bother carrying past year exam papers, books, class manuals to an island as beautiful as this? care what la, just burn it!!!

After all thats said and burnt (har har har) some Acmarians went to town to look for beer. Some stayed in their rooms playing cards. A bunch of them stayed on the beach for an hour or two just to enjoy the breeze, the feel of sand in between their toes and to just enjoy each others company.

tbc

my new rims :P

as promised, photo taken at night. so this is kind of a teaser

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She has beautiful silky hair
But I hate her.

She has playful round eyes
But I hate her.

She has a curvy spankable hiney
But I hate her.

She has gorgeous full breasts
But I hate her.

Her jaw line is a work of art
But I hate her

Her smile can sink a thousand ships (lame I know)
But I hate her.

Her laughter echoes the sound of heavens
But I hate her.

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the end is looming

changed my rims already

So i've put back the "original" satria neo rims on my car. good god, they're far more comfortable and quiet. Just as heavy but lost its cool factor. the previous ones were way cooler.
-i will post pics later

detailing day : sanding

Kenneth Taping up the front of the Jazz to do a 50/50 comparison.
Ken giving a demo on how to handle the Rotary Buffer.
This is a sample hood to practice on. Here Ken is sanding the surface to make it smoother.
evidence that the hood had been sanded. You can see the marks. thats ok. it will be removed later.
Using the rotary buffer to "buff" out the sand marks. Here he uses a foam pad + M82 (Swirl Free polish cutting level : 2/10) to try and remove the buff marks

Didnt do much: proving that M82 isnt strong enough.
Here is the hood after a couple of rounds of M82,M80 (speed glaze, cutting level 4/10) the M83 (dual action cleaner/polisher, cutting level 6/10)
can you see the difference between left side and right side?? can?
THis is a mirror. WRONG. it is the surface of the sample hood after buffing with M86! cutting level 12/10

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her: eh so how have you been jun? busy ah? Busy with work?

Jun: nope

her: waah lucky you man. I'd dream to get a job like yours.

Jun: uhuh

Her: so lucky, no stress.

Jun: ....sure. (puk* ah so lucky. I'd rather drink poison man than continuing at this place)

brb, have to do ironing

RIP Kak Mas

In loving memory of Massuria Aminuddin
1974-1992
16 years anniversary today.
I miss you Kak Mas


I
miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Na na na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Na na, na na na, na na
I mïss you

this is a story of a guy who went mad for an Angel. part 4

A couple more weeks pass. Emz was about to sit for her Penilaian Menengah Rendah. Sri Acmar isnt a very large school so students had to take their exams in another school. That school is a neighbour school called Kwang Hua.....and I'm sure you can guess that MANY students go to this school.
Jazz had suspected that many eyes would fall on this lanky lass as soon as she stepped into the school compound. His suspiciouns (how to spell??) were confirmed.
Hahaha Jazz teased her alot about it for the next couple of days. But of course he meant well! Jazz understood fully the "trauma" she went through.
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More weeks go buy and Jazz's final exams were coming up. The dreaded Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia! His friends one day sat down and came up with a brilliant idea. Since SPM will be in November, they suggested to their favourite teachers a holiday in Pulau Pangkor AFTER the exams. WOOP WOOP. But once again trips like this were usually reserved for seniors who have just finished school or whateva. how lame. SOooooo instead of just the seniors (only a tiny portion) , juniors and lower forms were to be included.
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WOOOPP!!!
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every night he wished
*pls come pls come pls come pls come.......*
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WHOOP DEE DOO!! (Emz decided to go)
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clock ticks away night after night.
clock on the Kwang Hua wall ticks to the very beats of the students thumping chests doing the exams.
*SUMMER*

*SUMMER*

*SCHOOLS OUT! SCREAM AND SHOUT*
(okay sorry, couldnt resist that.)


And finally on the last day of the exams (since it was puasa month no reason to celebrate yet) Jazz rushed home to pack!

tbc

this is a story of a guy who went mad for an angel Part 3

Memories of prom nights dont last for long in Acmar. Simply because, prom nights were experienced every year! Acmar was so small, that if only the seniors turned up, it wont be much of an event.
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A couple of weeks passed. Jazz was probably still floating a few inches above the ground. He decided to bake his specialty dessert. Non-baked choco-biscuit fudge. Not really for himself, but he made it for Emz. One day along the school corridor, where she usually stood by the railing with her mate Mal, Jazz took the opportunity to offer her some of the choco-dessert. Well wouldn't it be weird if he suddenly barged into her class room and said "hey, got cookies for ya".
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His heart and stomach sank when she declined his offer. Oh well, she was probably concerned that the few grams of fudge would discreetly turn into 16 ounces (yes thats 1 pound) in her tummy, ballooning her into ghastly proportions.
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not wanting the dessert to go to waste, he gave them to his classmates to indulge. Take that! He silently wished it would turn them into Acmarian Michelin men.
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tbc

ISFJ

http://typelogic.com/isfj.html

this is a story of a guy who went mad for an angel Part 2

So Jazz and Emz continue keeping in touch by other means, ie. SMS.
Those days sms's cost 20 cents each......and when you are bored during tuition classes, you sms someone. And yup, both of them did that non-stop.
Till at one point he didnt receive anything. hmmm weird...Maybe she hated him because he disturbed her too much.
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Jazz later found out from his friend, Chuck, that Emz couldnt sms him at all. Because her number couldnt be accessed. Why? coz her dad broke her sim card!! Scary!! Her dad is kind hearted no doubt but is reaaally strict when it comes to boys and girls interacting with each other. One day even Emz's little sister Shaza, received a love letter from her secret admirer. Her dad flipped!!
For goodness sake she was only 9.
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fewh, He was glad she didnt ignore him for no reason. One day, Emz asks Jazz if he's gonna take Jying to the prom. ??? No. Jazz has other intentions. He wanted to take Emz! So after some hyperventilating ...Jazz asks Emz if she would go with him to the 2002 Acmar Prom night.
BUT Jazz was the prom night chairman. He would be extremely busy that night and wont have time to spend with her.
Emz simply said "its okay, I dont think I'll be very chatty, and will just be really shy."
Jazz: oh okee.
A couple of weeks pass, and indeed, Jazz and Emz make it to the prom together.
The theme:
Sophistication in Simplicity.
Showing up at the event hall, in a long black (is there another colour??) dress,
the tall, slender,beauty sent Jazz into a whirlpool of gooey, mushy, marshmallow dream.
(okay this is not easy to describe).
The rest, is history. (no, it really is)


tbc

this is a story of a guy who went mad for a angel Part 1

Once there was a senior boy (Jazz) in school. 17 at the time. Almost 1 year since he broke up with a bitch of a girl, MEGAGedikTRON. With bitch safely in the arms of this boy's own best friend, she was no longer a concern. lets move on.

Jazz wasnt really up for having any school boy/girl relationships but nevertheless still enjoyed the company and friendship of his old flame (Hazz). But what to do, Hazz is taken, by a real sleazeball. What does she see in him.? They are still together. Go and Get married laaah. Moving on.

English Week (if you all remember what that was) came. Entah macamane, but there was a fiery chemistry going on between Jazz and a girl by the name of Jying. (Jying and Jazz incidently the time keepers for the debate contest) So some girls began to tease him about it. Those girls are of course younger so he didn't take it so seriously laaa. But one of those girls caught his eye. There was an intense air about her he found fascinating. Then, the craze was to chat through ICQ. It wasn't difficult to find each other, but when they did, OH BOY. IT WAS EXPLOSIVE. This Angel, he calls her Emz.
Biodata:

Jazz
height: 179 cm (then)
weight: 76 kg (then)
Dark hair, gold/yellow skin.
Brown eyes
Sporty
Loves music and singing.

Emz
height: 170 cm
weight: ...no comment
Dark hair...straight.. fair complextion
VERY dark brown perfectly rounded eyes.
Cool and calm on the outside.
Sexy speaking voice. (no comment on the singing, never heard)

tbc

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Its really hard to wake up in the morning to feel like you don't have hope.
Really hard just to step into the shower when you know theres nothing to look forward too.
The journey theres is only 30 minutes, but what for? A waste.
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Then there is the unbelievable torture that is the day. No, no such thing as a happy life for me. Always been the angry kid. Suppressed for a couple of years and now resurfaced. I blame it on growing up too quickly. Growing up constantly being misunderstood. And till today, it still happens.
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Such is my pain, such is the hurt.
Love conquers all? Hardly.
For no love can overcome sheer angst and hatred. Time will only make it worse.
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To pick up the pieces after the shatter, i have tried.
no one else can do it.
To a point where not even you could do it. Thats how bad it was. And still is.
To a point where I'd rather be souless.
No warmth.
No feelings.
To drone on forever.


"I looked into its eyes, and saw no life. No soul."-Gerrard

my weekend

Friday

hikhikhik went to sleep at 6.45pm!....wait wait.....story not finish, woke up at 8.30 pm. ready to go Poppy.
Promised to pick her up at 10ish, lol but i was in the shower for too long. Wth...no dodgy thoughts okay!
the night was good, but for some reason, too much was swirling in my head.
maybe it was the music, maybe it was the place....(dont often go poppy) but it certainly wasnt the company!
The girl that brought us in looked alot like the Nadia (tom and nadia scandal) that I met a few weeks back. Later I asked Cynthia why her fren Shirly couldnt make it. Got la some reason. oh well....
Left for home quite early. But someones face was red. lol
goodnights!

Saturday

woke up at 11am. ready to head to sepang. Basically my brother needed someone to help him record his lap times. (my bro does superbiking)
He also drives a Subaru Impreza WRX. (no, not STI version)
But the thing is to drive that aruond the track when the track is dry is quite boring coz the WRX is 4 wheel drive. So no challenge la. (whateva)
At 12.30pm He was doing 1m 19s and decided to stop after about 10 laps. rest a bit.
Qualifying was at 2.10pm.
Basically he needed me to show by some hand signal whether he was beating his timing or not. So 1st lap he did 1m 18s.
2nd 1 m 17s
So mostly 1m 17s.
But got one lap he did 1 m 16s!!! LOL my hand signal was so frantic like some retard, hopefully he got it.
But sepang screwed up the timing at said he only did 1 m 18s. ppffttt so at the starting grid he had to be at 23place out of 24.
We went home after 3pm. (waah even had the privilege to talk to an F16 fighter pilot from the USAF, we asked him "so which do you prefer, up in the sky? or on the track?, he said "hell! The track man!)

seriously, i dont get to see weird things......you know what i mean

i had this friend who could see "things".
Her close friend (my ex) had this house on jln Tunku and it's Supposedly haunted. The house belonged to the late Tunku Abdul Rahman. The house is of course empty but the houses in the vicinity are all inhabited by Tunku's family. o..k....
one day, Eve of 2004, my friends and I had a picnic there....at...night.....so we could see the fireworks without going to KLCC. It was a good night. Not many mozzies. Nice cool air. Not much traffic noise.
Then my friend, I shall call her Ira, saw something. I took the hint as she suddenly went quiet. She can always see things that others don't. Sometimes she sees a whole family. I just hugged her and said "we just mind out own business"

Kesian dia. Sometimes she'll burst into tears (more like sobs) coz she doesnt want to see all this. One time when she was younger, supposedly she ended up in an alternate world. For about 5 minutes. As in, everyone was different. The environment was different. It was what we would call "alam bunian"
weird.

But last Friday was dumb.
A friend of mine, tried to frighten me when I crossed the road. 1st of all, her body was in between me and the other cars. I.e. if we kena bang, she'll be hit first. Woman, pls la, concentrate first b4 you try to scare others.
But hah! I've been known to be not so kind when it comes to surprises either.
I used to peranjat (shock) this girl by peeping at her with only my head showing. So it will look like my head is floating. And that I dont have a body.
(by peeping i dont mean when she's naked or anything)

but on friday
I also got an earful from this girl when I described how a haunted playground will be like. The sand will simply get footprints when no one is there, the swing will suddenly rock back and forth. Then she screamed and yes...aku dah pekak. But she's so cute. I dunno, maybe the way she describes things. The way she does things.


There was however one night in my room, where i saw this glowing light dancing around the room. Remember those bunga api we used to play called "sparklers". Like that la, but why would it be moving around in my room?

creepy

couple of things to do this week

1. Monday -gym!!!! DONE
2. Monday -sell off my front splitter. DONE
3. Tuesday-sort out the pieces of paper in the closet that supposed to be for goodnessknowswhat. DONE
4. Wedesday-revamp my room. starting with the bedside desks. DONE
5. Thursday- look for gifts. Gym
6. Friday - Continue revamping room and rearrange computer desk.
7. Saturday-Revamp room-TV needs rearranging.
7. Sunday -Attend detailing workshop.
8. Sunday -need to drop by ACE Hardware to grab some stuff.

Bar Celona night final pics

grrr why do I always chop my head off
nicole's sexy eyes

Day she become the demon

cabut the fog lamps first
cabut the bumpers
waaahh almost all colours are there except orange
Drex chan lekat lekat all the angel eye rings
thats a huge glue gun

the masking tape is there to hold it in placeDONE! (junbecks' car)

white_crows carArteus' car

call it angel eyes if you want. But my car has demon eyes.
huhuhhuh oooooh babeyh.

locked away.

thank you my friend for suggesting that I go for a scholarship.
and thank you to my parents for putting the pressure on me to study study study and not waste time and not giving me a chance to really think things through.

now i have this bond that I cannot release.

stuck here for many more years not being able to gain "experience"

experience yah, doing only 1 type of job.
na bu.


: and sorry to my dear friends from overseas, I may have met you all, but I still have my regrets.

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Little Miss muffet, sat on a tuppet
eating her curds and whey,
along came a spider,
it plopped down beside her,
and *squissh!!* no more cobwebs, HORAY!